I talked to her about how I was feeling and I have never felt better and more confident in us. I love her so much. I want to spend everyday of my life with her. I don’t ever want to lose her. I’m so excited and I’m scared because I don’t want to jinx us. I need us to last. I need us to be together forever. It’s what I want. It’s all I want and I hope The Lord blesses me with her for the rest of my life. I hope we get married and have kids and are always bestfriends. I need that. I’m so excited but I don’t want to jinx things. I don’t want to overthink things anymore. I just want to be with her for the rest of my life and everyday I get closer and closer to being able to commit to her until I am no longer here. I’m praying for that. It’s what I need and all I want. I hope The Lord puts her in my plan for me and me in his plan for her. I hope our destinies and fates are intertwined for enternity. I honestly do.