My most terrifying thoughts happen in the middle of the night. During the day I’m always happy thinking of you, during the evening I’m still excited and before I go to bed even more so. The most heart wrenching thoughts come in the middle of the night when I wake from my nightmares. When I wake and think, I wonder if today is the day she finds someone new, or is today the day she doesn’t love some of the things she used to about me. I hope and pray every night that these things don’t happen, because I love you more than life itself. Sometimes I just get scared. I don’t know. Back to sleep I go.