It’s a joke whenever we do the whole, “If you get another girlfriend I’ll get a new boyfriend.” thing. It was always funny to me because I would never be with anyone else. Today it was different. It just felt different. I’m not irreplaceable. I wish I was to her, but I don’t think I am or will be. That’s okay. I don’t have to be because I’m never going to give her a reason to replace me. I don’t know why I thought about it so much because it’s not a big deal. I love her. That’s all that matters.
I feel like love isn’t enough anymore. I feel like me just loving her unconditionally is only part of what I need to do. I don’t feel like I’m good enough and I just want to change that. I’ll figure it out eventually.