I’m close to losing my scholarship for school. I’ll be honest, for the first time in my life I was genuinely disappointed in myself and terrified. I did this to myself, and now I have to fix it. I can do it. I believe I can do anything if I put my mind to it and actually put in effort. I can be great. I’m tired of saying “If I tried”. No more of that. I can’t not try. I have to try at everything I put myself into. That has to be one of my main focuses from now on. I’ll still have time to grow my relationship into what I pray for it to be, but I won’t have a relationship if my shit isn’t together. That’s what I needed to understand, I just hope it’s not too late for me to change it. Please pray that God helps me get my act together. If you all wouldn’t mind. Im gonna need him, my family and her in order to help me make a change for the better.