I’m sorry it’s been so long. From now on I want to post at least once a week. Just to have fun really, and be honest about everything that’s going on.
I have never felt like forever was attainable before. I never have. I have always wanted to be with one person for the rest of my life. The thought of being with person after person was never really appealing to me when I was younger, and now that I’m older it’s so much less so that it’s almost disgusting to me. People make it sound like I should be trying to have sex with any and every girl that I can, and I don’t like that. Never have. I just want to be with one person and that’s all. That’s a choice I’ve made a long time ago and I’m at peace, and very happy, with it.
Nicole…..I really love her. I want to be with her and I want us to be together forever. It’s been sixteen months and I feel like I’ve finally figured it out. It’s difficult for me to find the right words to describe it, or it used to be. I just want her. That’s all. All of her, every second I’m able to have her. I feel that, as long as I’m with her, I’m with the person God meant for me to be with and stay with. So that’s what I want to always have, and that’s what I want to always be blessed with. I hope for it every second. I pray about, almost every night for a few months now. I just pray for her and really just ask God to let her know how much I love her and how much I care about her. To give her whatever she wants and to let her know I’ll always be by her side. No matter what happens. Is she chooses to always be with me, and to always be in love with me, then I’d honestly be the happiest man on Earth. If not, she always has me if she needs someone. I will always love her. I will always be in love with her. I promised her that. It makes me smile sometimes because I know its honestly how I feel, and it makes me feel like she feels the same way I do and she always will.
We’ll see though. ✌️