I’m in love with Nicole, and that’s why this is so hard for me. We’re not breaking up or anything like that, we just can’t talk as much and I honestly think I need to stop trying to talk to her while she’s away at camp.
You’d think it would be the other way around right? That I should try to talk to her as much as possible. So would I normally, but it isn’t working at all. I just come across as needy and like I’m trying to force conversations with her and I hate it. We’re not talking at all. She said she doesn’t have a lot of time and I get that. It just sucks.
I’m thinking maybe I just shouldn’t talk to her as much. Just give her space and talk when we can actually talk about things. Not these empty conversations that just make me angry. I hate that. I really do, but I don’t have a choice. At least I don’t think we do. I wish I had someone to talk to about this, but I don’t. So I’ll just do what I feel and hope for the best.
I’m going to King’s Island and Cedar Point this week with friends and family, so hopefully that’ll take my mind off of this.